Thursday, January 13th, 2005 | Author:

Apparently my Real Age is 27.7 even though I’m actually 29. I guess it could be worse, it could have been higher than my actual age.

If you’re going to take the assessment, be warned: it asks for your cholesterol counts and whatnot. I used the numbers from my last check two years ago. I’m not even sure how often that should be checked.

Speaking of health, as you may know by reading my rarely updated fitness site, I’ve fallen off the fitness wagon in a major way. I am now officially 10 lbs. heavier than I was in July 2004. It’s not the end of the world, but I am very disappointed in myself.

I seemed to have lost the motivation to exercise and watch what I eat. I wrote the below entry earlier this week (but never posted it) and then went to Panda Express for some orange chicken that same night. In my (poor excuse) defense, I haven’t had any orange chicken in many many months and I was craving it like you couldn’t believe.

The good news is I worked out for 45 minutes last night and I plan on doing the same on Saturday. I resolve to get back into the swing of things and lose that 10 lbs. plus an additional 10 lbs. before our wedding in late September. I really hope I don’t disappoint myself again!

— Written earlier this week —

I swear, I have lost all self control when it comes to my health and spending habits. I can’t stop shopping for little things around the house that really aren’t necessary when I actually need things like gym shoes and jeans since my only good pair no longer fit me.

I’ve been eating whatever I want whenever I want and now I’ve put on a total of 10 lbs. since July. All that hard work and some of it is down the toilet. I disgust myself right now. I can’t motivate myself to exercise more than a half hour once or twice a week. That is just not going to cut it. Neither is eating cookies and sweets all the time.

I also keep saying every night I’m going to go to bed early and then I never do. Last night I got too caught up in this new book I’m reading and didn’t want to put it down. Next thing I knew it was after 11 pm and I get up at 5:20 am! I need more than six hours to feel refreshed in the morning. Ideally I should be going to bed between 9:30-10:00 pm, but I always feel like I’m missing out on something by doing so.

The thing that kills me is that I’m not at home doing any earth-shattering important tasks that prevent me from cooking a healthy meal, working out, or going to bed early. All I typically do after work other than go out and run errands are watch tv, surf online, and spend time with Joe. We don’t have kids to take care of and we get home relatively earlier in comparison to many people, so why I continue to sit around doing nothing every night is beyond me. I always have good intentions during the day, but once I get home I feel exhausted and don’t want to exert any energy.

I really need to reorganize my priorities and stop spending so much time sitting on my butt. The really sad part is that I don’t even have to give up tv as I can watch it when I work out. I just need to motivate myself to go upstairs and get on that elliptical machine. I want to be at my target weight before it gets warm outside. I know we’ll be taking the kids swimming at the subdivision’s pool and I don’t want to be too embarrassed to wear a swimsuit and join in the fun. I’m really disappointed in myself for losing focus and being so lazy. I need to get back on track right now!

Category: Health
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