I’m probably the only person in the world who doesn’t want an ipod. Well, that’s not entirely true – I wouldn’t mind having one if I didn’t have to actually pay for it. Maybe ten years ago I could justify the price as I spent hours a day commuting to work via public transportation. Although the irony of that is back then I wasn’t making much money so I couldn’t afford one. Now I have my 6-cd changer in my car and Winamp at home, so I couldn’t see using an ipod often, but I have the funds. Funny how that works.
That being said, Joe bought me the 40-gig ipod for our anniversary. And as bad as I felt, I mean so bad that it made me cry, I took it back today for a refund. We’ve already had to go into our savings account to pay for all the work we’ve been doing on our new place; I can’t justify dipping into savings again for an overpriced toy that I don’t need, nor would use very often. You probably think I’m nuts, huh?
Just the thought of having to take another $400 from our account was making me sick to my stomach. It’s difficult to go nuts on gifts for one another now that we share a bank account and we don’t have much “extra” money at the end of the month. Plus I know we have a lot of expenses coming up this year with the new digital camera I am getting in the Spring (now that I won’t feel guilty spending $1500 on because I know I’ll use it often) and our wedding/honeymoon in either September or October (yea, we still need to figure that out). I don’t think it’s fair with all the money I’ve spent on cameras to have another pricey toy when Joe hasn’t gotten much over the years.
So I think we made the right decision. The thought was what means so much to me, though, and why I still feel terrible having to make that decision. The reason Joe even contemplated spending so much money for a present for me is because he feels I deserve nice things and he wants me to be happy. He knows I’ve been feeling down a lot lately and hated seeing me that way. The thing is, I do have a nice thing that makes me happy: him. No ipod could compare.
Happy Anniversary, hon! I love you more than words can say.